The Darkest Chapter

I met the heart of the city around early January and I immediately fell in love with it. There's just so much buzzing and lights and promise everywhere and I so badly wanted to be a part of it. I learned about its opulence, how amazing it is to be a part of something that...

Wine Thoughts

I am an alcoholic. I know that. I am chugging down my 4th bottle of wine as I type this essay about how wrong it is to be one. And while I know that this is rather ironic, I cannot help but ponder as to why I resort to alcohol every now and then. Is...

I Should Tell You This Tomorrow

And I know that you said that it would be best if we don't get emotional but I'm feeling awfully depressed and upon assessing myself, I know that there's only one thing that would make me feel better: I want to fall in love. I know that tomorrow, there's a 70-30 chance that we'd watch...

Drink 4 More Pills After 12 Hours

To my first child, Hello. First and foremost, I would like to apologise in advance since I know that I can't have you just yet. I bet you'd be beautiful. I know that you are. But this is not when I'll have you. You are not supposed to be the child who was conceived inside...

La Verdad (The Truth)

And so it might be a little too much of a bad omen, but I shall start my year with an emotional purge. I forgot to write about that time last December 22, when I was riding the elevator down your building. I was holding back tears of retribution. My chest felt constricted. I can...

Whore

I light another cigarette. Have I told you that I quit smoking 3 years ago? And yet now, I feel like every time I think of you, I need to finish a good stick or two. I lie down my bed. I see the smoke rise above my head. I can't do this anymore. I...

What We’re Going To Do

Let me tell you what we're going to do. I know that we've gotten a lot closer these past few weeks. It was great. But I just can't afford to lose another night overthinking about who we are. You are nice. You're funny. You and I share the same language. I know that you find...

Not Again

And I am beginning to fall all for the wrong reasons. And I can feel that you are too. Please don't. Don't you dare fall in love with me. You have a girlfriend and I have someone whom I love more than anything in this world. Don't tell me I'm cute. Don't drive me around....

I Should Have Kissed You

I should have kissed you when we were four; when you hated everybody. I should have pressed my lips on your puffy wet cheeks soaked with tears. I should have held you, little as we were, and told you how cute you looked and that I wanted to be your friend. I should have hugged...